This is a unusually personal post from me. I’m not great at writing things like this, so please bear with me.
I’m a fairly confident person. I don’t really give a flying monkey about what other people think about me. People can say horrible things to me and I can brush them off relatively easy. There is just one thing that can reduce me to tears in seconds.
My weight.
Until I was about 22 or 23, I was really slim, sitting at a comfortable size 12. Being tall, any smaller than that made me look lanky and gaunt. Over the next few years, I gained weight quite steadily. I know why – I like chocolate, cake, pizza, wine, beer, biscuits. I eat when I’m bored. I’ve tried all sorts of diets, but lets face it, unless you have willpower, diets don’t work. Not in the long term.
Just after having Alex, I lost quite a bit of weight – about two stone. I was following a healthy eating plan, and breastfeeding certainly helped. I felt good, and seeing the numbers on the scales and my dress size go down kept me motivated.
We then had some problems with our house, and it fell by the wayside. The weight rapidly piled back on, and then I found myself pregnant with Ben. I’m now the heaviest I have ever been. I hate the way I look and feel. I used to just worry about my tummy and ‘love handles’. Now I notice the weight on my face, my back, my legs and my arms. At the beginning of this year, I made myself a promise to lose weight. It’s now May, and I’m yet to do anything about it.
It’s like smoking. I know I need to lose weight. I want to lose weight. But up until very recently, I haven’t had that ‘push’ inside me to do it. The problem I have is that I’m impatient – I need to see results NOW otherwise I get demotivated and give up.
When I saw an opportunity to work with Slim-fast, I knew this might be the thing to help me. I’m sceptical about it being a long term weight loss tool – but to kick start it off and help me see some much needed results, I think it will help. It’s a meal replacement diet – I will be swapping two of my meals for shakes and bars, and then eating a healthy meal on the evening.I also can have up to three of the snacks provided each day. The guys at Slimfast asked me about my BMI to make sure the plan was suitable for me, and to check with my GP before starting it – she gave me the go ahead.
I will be following the Slim-fast plan for a fortnight, and will be keeping you updated with my progress. I’m not comfortable sharing my actual weight with anyone (not yet anyway!), but I am now a size 18-20. My goal is to get down to a size 12-14. I don’t have a set time for this, but I now feel motivated enough to do this.
Wish me luck!
oh good luck Rachel. I know what it feels like because I really struggle with my weight too and I’m currently on my own weightloss journey. I’m so glad I started it though. I look forward to seeing how you do. If you fancy joining a few of us on my blog are supporting each other as I’ve started a weight loss linky. I don’t mean for that to be a plug, and no worries if not but as there’s only a few of us it’s just nice and supportive. X
GOOD LUCK!!! I will definitely be looking out for updates on this blog. As you know with me before I had Kian I was really slim… Too slim at one point just before I got pregnant at 5ft 9 and a size 8-10 you could see all my bones and looked really ill that my Mum and Nan dragged me the doctors thinking I had an eating disorder although I didn’t I used to be able to eat anything and it wouldn’t affect me… I then got pregnant with Kian. I really gain much weight then at first didn’t even have much of a baby bump untill my 3rd trimester, it was as if my weight and baby bump came out over night and at a size 20-22 I thought it will all disappear once Kian was born but it didn’t. I managed to get down to a size 18 then I got pregnant with Maisie and thought more about losing weigh so after trying weight watchers for a bit I only managed to lost 7lb then tried slimming world and didn’t lose anything so tried weight watchers again, I really weren’t disciplined enough or had the will power with it all untill December 2013. My Nan & Grandad brought me a new coat for Christmas but it was a tad tight so they offered to buy me a new coat but I refused and decided then that I need to lose weight so on my own I joined my local slimming world group AGAIN in January 2014 this time I had will power and determination. Lost 7lb in my first week 16 months on I’m still attending group every week without fail and staying to the meeting after being weighed. I have lost nearly 2½ stone over all and am now a size 14-16 depends where I shop. My target is to get to a size 12 by this Christmas… Fingers crossed I do it.
Sorry for rambling on lol xx
good luck with your weight loss journey. I am thinking or starting my own. But I am like you I need to see results or I get unmotivated. Let me know how you get on and if this helps please x
Thankyou Nikki. I’ll be doing weekly updates, even after the challenge. The support I have had just from this post alone has been fantastic – and I know that is going to keep me motivated!
Hey Rach….very honest hun….iv had the same struggles after Roman. Easy to loose weight after cienna. Maybe it’s the getting older slowing down of metabolism. Lol. Oh the joys. I’m not where I want to be yet. It’s a struggle not much energy for an exercise routine around 2 kids study and the usual cooking…cleaning routine.
I hate photos of my body to Rach. Particularly my stomach area. So the blog will be motivating to watch and read. XX