This is a unusually personal post from me. I’m not great at writing things like this, so please bear with me.
I’m a fairly confident person. I don’t really give a flying monkey about what other people think about me. People can say horrible things to me and I can brush them off relatively easy. There is just one thing that can reduce me to tears in seconds.
Until I was about 22 or 23, I was really slim, sitting at a comfortable size 12. Being tall, any smaller than that made me look lanky and gaunt. Over the next few years, I gained weight quite steadily. I know why – I like chocolate, cake, pizza, wine, beer, biscuits. I eat when I’m bored. I’ve tried all sorts of diets, but lets face it, unless you have willpower, diets don’t work. Not in the long term.
Just after having Alex, I lost quite a bit of weight – about two stone. I was following a healthy eating plan, and breastfeeding certainly helped. I felt good, and seeing the numbers on the scales and my dress size go down kept me motivated.
We then had some problems with our house, and it fell by the wayside. The weight rapidly piled back on, and then I found myself pregnant with Ben. I’m now the heaviest I have ever been. I hate the way I look and feel. I used to just worry about my tummy and ‘love handles’. Now I notice the weight on my face, my back, my legs and my arms. At the beginning of this year, I made myself a promise to lose weight. It’s now May, and I’m yet to do anything about it.
It’s like smoking. I know I need to lose weight. I want to lose weight. But up until very recently, I haven’t had that ‘push’ inside me to do it. The problem I have is that I’m impatient – I need to see results NOW otherwise I get demotivated and give up.
When I saw an opportunity to work with Slim-fast, I knew this might be the thing to help me. I’m sceptical about it being a long term weight loss tool – but to kick start it off and help me see some much needed results, I think it will help. It’s a meal replacement diet – I will be swapping two of my meals for shakes and bars, and then eating a healthy meal on the evening.I also can have up to three of the snacks provided each day. The guys at Slimfast asked me about my BMI to make sure the plan was suitable for me, and to check with my GP before starting it – she gave me the go ahead.
I will be following the Slim-fast plan for a fortnight, and will be keeping you updated with my progress. I’m not comfortable sharing my actual weight with anyone (not yet anyway!), but I am now a size 18-20. My goal is to get down to a size 12-14. I don’t have a set time for this, but I now feel motivated enough to do this.
Wish me luck!